fasa

Fasa baru

17:49
Last night, I watched a theatre with Sofea titled - It's Over Now.The lines hit me well, right in the feels.I was expecting more movements, but then they were static -talking about the past.The woman was still hoping for something but then the man said he came only for old good times, for the happiness that they once had.The meaning of love to both of them contradicts from each other.It is an adaptation of the movie Comet.

Apakah yang membuat air mata seolah hendak jatuh di tebingnya
Saat lirik lagu - It must have been love but it's over now nyanyian Roxette berputar di corong audio
berkali-kali
Tika itu,hati ini tidaklah sebak
Cuma aku juga berkata pada diriku
It was real - after all
Untuk diriku

Perasaan itu, ia berbolak balik,datang dan pergi
hiba dan sebak bergilir-gilir
dan sekarang
seolah penulis menceritakan kisahnya sendiri
persis Zainuddin dalam Tenggelamnya Kapal Van der Wijck

Aku seringkali mahu menulis persepsiku tentang karya Hamka,yang atas itu dan juga Di Bawah Lindungan Kaabah.Namun kini,perasaan pemeran watak-watak itu lebih terasa bila kita sudah melaluinya sendiri,tidak begitu?Melihat,cuba memahami dan mengalami sendiri adalah tiga titik dan fasa berbeza dalam hidup.

Tulisanku hari ini tidak lain hanya untuk mengingatkan diriku sendiri yang aku sudah berada di tahap, berani berkongsi tanpa lagi memikirkan prejudis dan tanggapan yang lain-lain.

Aku sudah di fasa yang baru. :)

Dan kata-kata Buya Hamka ini akan terus jadi puisi indah yang menguatkan semangat!







Cinta bukan melemahkan hati, bukan membawa putus asa, bukan menimbulkan tangis sedu sedan. Tetapi cinta menghidupkan pengharapan, menguatkan hati dalam perjuangan menempuh onak dan duri penghidupan.

- Hamka, Tenggelamnya Kapal Van Der Wijck (favourite, as always)


FINAL HUG

10:06
I still remember the last time I was in Blok Seroja,with one heavy luggage and a few parcels, which one of them containing kek lapis (layered cakes) of various flavors.My heart was heavy,I felt a lump in the throat, maybe two or three butterflies were flying in my stomach ( I think so).

Walking down the corridor in front of my room, heading to the staircase, I went to Allyssha's room and slid an envelope under her door.Oh my, how I wish I could give a final hug to a dear friend, my closest Sarawakian friend.She has something different than anybody else.I knew it the first time I laid my eyes on her,in physics class at DKA 2.At that moment,I uttered to myself "I want to be her friend".

Little did I know, we both become closer after that as she was elected as the president of our Students' Council and I was her secretary.There was the days, where she came knocking to my room, and we both edited the paperwork together, right at that very last minute!

The night before, Allyssha came to my room saying sorry as she couldn't make it to a last dinner ,a farewell dinner organized by Students' Council.I was really sad T_T

"It's okay then,Allyssha.But I really hope you could join us"

Maybe she had something important,nak but camna kan,kamek sik boleh polah apa kalau kitak busy.

Then,about 10 minutes after someone knocked on the door - Allyssha.

Yes!!! My face lit up with excitement.She joined the dinner.

.....

Dinner was good, Sir Hafiz handed some amount of money to be spent, and all my teammates were there.I love you guys!

Not to forget, my two friends that I hold dear to my heart -Nazira and Nadia Ruqayyah, we shared a lot of good times in Sarawak.

I have many other good friends in UNIMAS,you know who you are ;)

It is 2018 now, I already learnt two great lessons

- NEVER GIVE UP ON WHAT YOU WANT
- ALWAYS COUNT THE BLESSINGS

Allah grant our wishes in ways that we could never imagine.