2020

Second half of 2020

01:23
Hello and assalammualaikum,

If I am writing here after a long time,it would mean that - I am on the verge of doing my last minute assignment and I need to write just to express what is deep inside and to be okay again.This is my bad habit and I know,I know I should stop PRO-crastinate.

Sekejap saja,kita dah di pertengahan Julai.Saya harap penggal kedua 2020 ini membawa kebaikan dan kegembiraan.I read something about emotional differentiation,shared by a psychologist in twitter,and that changed the way I think.If we have no control about a situation then why do we let it consume our energy and affect our moods.Say no to negative things that are out of our capacity.I tried not to overthink things that is out of my control and that made me feel better.I do realized that I cannot be positive allll the way (that is toxic positivity,and someday it will consume me too).

To acknowledge that happiness come from within will also make you aware that you are what you feed your soul.Talking bout that I think I need to get myself a cup of hot green tea,with a spoon of honey and a slice of lemon.Yep,I will.

Alhamdulillah, so far my art journey has been so exciting as I stepped out of my comfort zone and started to use new medium which is acrylic.But,my love for watercolour will remain as always.It makes me happy that my orders are increasing and most importantly a lot of these lovely people are asking me to paint for their loved ones.Beautiful soul and hearts.May Allah bless them.

As I paint on canvases and papers,the designs that they desired,I keep reminding myself that I need to do my best as what I am projecting on the canvas is their act of showing their love and appreciation to their special ones (be it family,friends or their significant other).I only hope that everytime their loved ones lay their eyes on the paintings,it would remind them the love and memories that they had with that person.

I had my time of disappointment too, when the visuals of the painting that I desired did not turn out to be the same.But, it's okay,I can try again until I am satisfied with the outcome.Will try my best to deliver your happiness and love hehe.

This online learning works well for me,I think.I am enjoying it.Plus, I am blessed with good groupmates.I wish that I can ace this semester get higher grades than last semester (InsyaAllah,do pray for me).My prereg for the incoming semester was smooth,and I get to register myself in Clinical Psychology class which I intend to specialise in the future.InsyaAllah.

One thing about 2020 is that,despite the lockdown and adjusting to new norm,if it is still hard for you to find the blessings amidst of Covid-19, please do say Alhamdulillah as you are surviving this pandemic (if you are still reading this).The fact that we are still here,breathing, is a gift from God.Semoga kita selalu pilih untuk melihat kebahagiaan dalam sekecil-kecil perkara.

I will write about EEG and IMHRC in the coming post.Need to go back to psychology after so longgg.

Goodnight.