Semuanya sudah di penghujung.2020 kini seperti hujan lebat,menangisi segala yang telah berlalu,awan bungkam dan kelabu.Namun di setiap penghujung kita harus sedar akan ada permulaan yang baru.Hidupkanlah jiwamu.Apa-apa saja yang telah kita harungi,telah pun berlalu.

Sekarang,jalan terus.Benar impian itu yang menghidupkan.Ini saya kira kata-kata semangat yang akan terus menyuburkan jiwa saya dan tetap kuat untuk kecapi apa yang ada di hadapan.
Yes,life is uncertain.But why would you let yourself in that same loop of disappointment, live and soar higher.Do not succumb in the past - dwelling in all the sadness and sorrow.You have the power to be better,then be it.

Take one small step at a time.One wise friend once told me if things seem to be out of your capacity and you are starting to feel the burden and the fear of not being able to cope with what life is throwing at you,take a paper and write down the things.Then,as you try to figure it out and settle them one by one,scratch the one that you have accomplished.There you go, a small achievement.You deserve a pat on the back.

As for 2021,I would like to focus on my passion as that will push me to achieve it.Let us start small and achieve it one by one.Academic wise, that falls into the scope of responsibility.Yes,our grades do not define us.Tetapi jika berjaya dalam pendidikan itu yang akan membawa kita jauh mencapai impian-impian lain dan menjadikan kita lebih cemerlang dalam segenap aspek,maka itu juga impian yang layak diletakkan sebagai prioriti bukan.Makanya,saya selalu meletakkan apa yang saya minat itu sebagai penolak untuk mencapai kejayaan dalam akademik.

Goals for arts - to produce postcards and art prints.Goals for final year - I hope that I will be able to do my internship at a counselling centre or anything related to psychology and pick the right topic for my final year project.A lot of readings is required.I hope that my topic will be beneficial and impactful to the community.

Start wherever you are,start now.

I already have a list of my fav lyrics and poems for the postcards.Hoping that I will make good use of this coming semester break to paint and start applying for internships.

Slow down,don't rush things.There are things you can see only when you slow down.
Let us do something special on 1 January 2021
It falls on Jumaat,a plus point.

    -Read al-kahf (at least 1-10 and 100-110) and read the tafsir

    -Have a sip of your favourite drink- be it dalgona,latte,green tea (with a spoonful of              honey) or hot choc

    -Write,yes please.Jot down what you feel anywhere,be it on a small piece of paper and          put it in your wallet.Let's do this so that on certain gloomy days you can read it and              realize how you've had a good start on 1st of January.

    -Dress nicely- to impress yourself!Put on that make-up,wear something that makes you         feel good,just do it -it is a start of something new.

    -Let's maintain good hygiene this year,a clean and fresh you shows how much self-                respect that you have on yourself.Plus,it's jumaat - Trim your nails,shave,and put on             perfume

    -Okay,now -SELFIE!This would be the first picture in your album of 2021.Oh,please             smile!

    -Whatever heavy feelings that you bring from 2020 or difficult emotions that you cannot     resolve,it is okay.Let me reassure you,it is okay to feel that way ( we will talk bout this         soon in 2021)

    -Hey,smile!

We are good to go,2021 is going to be an amazing year.Life is uncertain,let it be.As long as we are certain of our purposes in this world,even if we do not come into terms with certain aspects of our life,as long as we have the will to keep living,you are going to be okay.

Adios!For everyone who supported me right from the start of @farrahwhoart,I need to say this - I love all of you for doing so.Thank you,that meant so much to me.

                                                                                                                 Between what is said 

and not meant

and what is meant

and not said

most love is lost 

- Kahlil Gibran

 Assalammualaikum,

Alhamdulillah penghujung tahun ini kegembiraan datang semula dalam caranya tersendiri.Hidup kita pastilah bukan yang manis-manis sahaja tetapi kebahagiaan itu kita sendiri yang perlu cari dan nikmati.Mungkin kebahagiaan datang dalam sekecil-kecil perkara seperti menikmati tenangnya senja ataupun menulis dalam jurnal.Punca kebahagiaan kita semua berbeza.

Salah satu kebahagiaan utama adalah makanan.Mak selalu mengingatkan saya agar memasak perkara-perkara mudah seperti mi goreng atau nasi goreng.Tetapi,jujurnya saya lebih suka menikmati masakannya dan acapkali ketika menemaninya memasak di dapur Rumah Mak, pastinya mak akan mengarahkan untuk mengupas bawang putih dan menghiris bawang merah.Itu sahaja skil saya yang paling okay, hahaha.

Namun, apa yang paling membahagiakan adalah apabila saya mencuba-cuba membuat Sambal Tuk Tuk yang saya belajar daripada blog Hanis Zalikha atau ibunya, Puan Nani Rostam kerana saya adalah pembaca tegar blog mereka ketika di sekolah menengah.Kerana saya rasakan resepinya begitu mudah dan saya juga pencinta ikan bilis,maka saya berikan sedikit Sambal Tuk Tuk pada mak.

Mak mengatakan betapa dia suka akan sambal itu dan sedap dimakan begitu saja dengan nasi panas.Maka berbunga-bungalah hati saya walaupun itu hanyalah pencapaian kecil, besar maknanya untuk saya.

Tahun lepas,ketika ulang tahun terakhir mak yang ke-68 tahun (yang pastinya tidak saya jangkakan sebagai yang terakhir kali), selera makan mak sudah susut maka saya membuat sambal ini untuk mak.Ketika menghulurkan sambal,saya beriya-iya sungguh menyuruh Mak merasa sambal itu kerana bimbang mak tak akan jamah dek kerana seleranya yang berkurang.Maka,itulah sambal Tuk Tuk yang terakhir buat mak.

Ramadhan kali ini Uncle Daniel yang juga pencinta sambal Tuk Tuk meminta saya menyediakan sebekas sambal untuknya sebagai pembangkit selera untuk dijamah ketika sahur.Penghargaan sebeginilah yang membuat saya bahagia sendiri.Kebahagiaan itu sebenarnya hadir kerana ketika menyediakan sambal ini ingatan utamanya adalah pada mak.

Mungkin kebahagiaan itu kita sandarkan pada kerinduan.Maka apa-apa saja perkara yang mengingatkan kita pada seseorang yang kita rindui dan sayangi,hal itulah yang menghidupkan kebahagiaan dalam diri kita.

Tidak lengkaplah penulisan kali ini jika tidak saya kongsikan resepi Sambal Tuk Tuk.Mungkinkah kamu juga menemukan kebahagiaan pada sambal ini?

Bahan- bahan

Ikan bilis 
Bawang merah/Bawang besar
Bawang putih 
Cili merah
Cili hijau
*kuantiti terpulang 

Cara-cara

1.Belahkan bawang merah kepada empat bahagian,bawang putih cukup sekadar potong dua
2.Hiriskan cili merah besar-besar,cili hijau tak perlu potong pun tak apa :)
3.Gorengkan bahan-bahan ini dengan sedikit minyak (tidak perlu terlalu lama,sekadar hingga warna bertukar keperangan dan naik bau)
4.Angkat dan toskan minyak,ketepikan
5.Goreng ikan bilis (kalau suka garing,biarkan lama sikit)
6.Masukkan kesemua bahan yang digoreng dalam lesung batu dan ambil sedikit ikan bilis,
apalagi silalah tumbuk sekarang :p
7.Perah limau kasturi atau lemon dan gaulkan (jika anda suka)
8.Gaul sambal itu dengan ikan bilis yang sudah digoreng tadi*
*Jika anda nak tumbukkan kesemua ikan bilis dengan bahan-bahan utama pun boleh,cumanya saya lebih suka jika ikan bilis diletakkan on top of sambal.Ikan bilis yang kita dah tumbuk tadi menimbulkan rasa-rasa rangup dan ditambah pula ikan bilis yang garing

Sekian,perkongsian saya kali ini.Cubalah,mungkin sambal ini akan jadi kegemaran anda juga. 😆😄

Lama sekali rasanya tidak menulis.Maka berjilid-jilidlah perasaan yang terbuku dalam kamar hati.Biarlah malam ini saya berbicara dengan lenggok sastera ya.Terkadang penulisan yang tersurat tidak mampu menerangkan rasa-rasa yang terlalu dalam.

Dua ribu dua puluh dalam usia dua puluh dua tahun ini mendidik saya begitu banyak.Salah satunya redha dan ikhlas,Memang tidak mudah.Seringkali hati kecil ini merasa sudah cukup baik tetapi apabila menghadapai ujian yang tidak pernah saya sangka - ternyatalah saya bukanlah manusia sempurna.Masih ada perasaan terpaksa dalam berbuat kebaikan.

Kadang-kadang saya mencari jawapan daripada sisi psikologi dengan cuba memahami perspektif dan rasa hati manusia lain.Jujur,saya tidak mampu.Akhirnya hanya meletakkan kesungguhan dan melepaskan pada Tuhan yang akan membuat hati kembali berdamai dengan jiwa.

Sukar.

Mungkin kita perlu ambil masa,duduk dan menghadapi hari-hari dengan cuba menyesuaikan diri dengan jamuan kehidupan.Setiap kesukaran dan masalah itu mungkin adalah cara Tuhan menghidupkan jiwa saya.

Benar, 2020 ini mungkin tahun yang mencabar daripada segenap aspek.
Impian yang selalu saya katakan menghidupkan jiwa,kini rasanya terlalu jauh umtuk digapai.
Tapi jangan gusar,impian itu masih menghidupkan saya.Jika tidak,mana mungkin saya di sini masih menulis.

Rindu sekali hendak meluahkan rasa,cumanya beberapa bulan ini tiada rasa hendak menulis melainkan hal-hal seperti mencatat peralatan seni yang telah saya beli ataupun hasil daripada berkarya.
Satu perkara yang terus bergerak dalam diri saya pada 2020 ini adalah sisi seni.Alhamdulillah.☺️🥰

Saya sebenarnya,baik-baik sahaja.Cuma penulisan kali ini tampak begitu suram,kan?Mungkin kita semua mengharapkan yang terlalu indah untuk 2020,mungkin saya sahaja yang begitu.Akhirnya,kemudiah kita dipatahkan oleh pengharapan sendiri.
Maka carilah kebahagiaan dalam dirimu sendiri

Menuju akhir 2020,saya bersyukur masih bernafas.

Hello and assalammualaikum,

9 years later

His book became a bestseller, the story about 9 years before.
She showed up, they talked about the promise they once had.

Averted gaze.In denials.

They are playing around with their own feelings.Why would one only wait until there is no more time.

Asking for extra time, wishing that the other one would never go.Just a lil bit more.
A few minutes more.

The extra one is always special, it makes you realize
that you are
on the edge
of letting go
and
to hold dearly.

Simultaneously contradicting.
Bitter truth.

Or --

if the feelings are mutual, should they spare some more time for each other

Time
Uncertainties
Risks

Will there be a next time?

...

Because this movie is too good, I am taking my sweet time to enjoy each words, watching their expression, all the little moments that matters.



p/s : You can never replace anyone cause they are made of beautiful specific details

#BeforeTrilogy #ifIwriteaboutamovie #itmeansthatitisgood #whyareyou #readingthehashtag

😜

Last semester break, my family is grateful with the opportunity to host an AFS exchange student from Italy in conjunction with The 8th International Friendship and Cultural Camp (IFCC)  that was held in SK Air Merah.

Back in my secondary school, when I was in form 3 and form 4 there were two exchange student from France and Switzerland respectively.I can still remember the girls in my class flocking at the door when the boy from France was walking around the school as the teacher was showing him the places in our school.Then in 2014, a beautiful Swiss girl made us all in awe and I have always waited for her to give a speech during the assembly.She once shared about her hometown, right after I reached home that day, I googled it and it was a countryside with a mesmerising view of a lake - forgive me I don't remember the place.I had this one picture with her and I hope it is still there,in one of the many files of pictures ( I should look up for it soon!).

Most of the exchange students were in my school because they have a host sister or brother that is studying in the same school and I was clueless back then how to become a host family,the procedures and all ( I secretly hope that my parents would opt to become a host family).And now, years later after I had finished school, finally I am being given the chance to have a host sister,alhamdulillah.

If some of you had read AFS Exchange Student Interview Tips , you would know how me and my friend applied for this AFS Exchange Student Programme.Seeing the foreign students flew far away from their hometown across the globe to learn and exchange new culture sparked my interest to join the programme as well.

Back to my main topic, this sweet girl named Manuela from Rome,Italy was assigned to us as a host sister for a really short three days but it was an amazing experience.Believe me, days before as Sofea and I arrived home from our uni we were nervous as how to greet her and "dia makan nasi tak?".Should we prepare vegetarian food for her,will she be comfortable to sleep in the room all alone or should Saffa accompany her and most of all,how should we make her short stay a  memorable one?All the questions were lingering in our head.

The day came, Ummi brought her back home with her buddy - Yi Wei (Teacher Soo's son).Fortunately, she is a very friendly and warm girl, initiating a conversation with her was a breeze.So the first night, we went to buy a baju kurung ( a traditional Malay attire) for her and we played a round of bowling together.The second day, there was a programme in Kampung Lindungan Raja,Sedim.The exchange students from Korea,France and Italy were being taught on how to produce coffee beans and prepare traditional food such as peknga (a type of pancake).They were also shown the way to grate the coconut which is the first step to produce santan (coconut milk).In the evening, the students had an astronomy night session where they were given chance to look at they brightest star, Sirius through the telescope.Amazing!

The third day, Manuela went for a sightseeing in Alor Star with the other exchange students.We fetched her in the evening and brought her to Penang as it was the last night.So we had a stroll in Batu Ferringhi Night Market and had some family time together.

"Would you like this one?"

              

Family time over coffee and chit chats

Abah putting down his autograph on the card

Ummi writing a card for Manuela

On the last day, we sent Manuela to school and bid her farewell.It was a pleasure to host you,Manu.Manuela gave us some beautiful souvenirs from Italy, so thoughtful of her.Hoping that I can visit her in the future, insyaAllah.
Manuela gave us a postcard and that definitely made my day! ^^

Peony ; symbolize romance and prosperity.

Manis dan harum.

Alhamdulillah , dah habis 4 paper.Dua lagi.


-Statistical Psychology
-Bahasa Melayu Kerjaya
-Social Psychology
-Developmental Psychology